I like to write blog posts about good things worth celebrating, things I think will be helpful to other moms, or things that are just truly terrible that I can make funny.
Lately I've just felt a little blah. Blah doesn't fall into any of those categories.
This time last year Blue was winding down his 9 month long defiant peeing / destructive behaviors spree and I was still VERY ON EDGE ALL THE TIME because of that mess.
None of that is going on anymore.
I have friends who have gone through/are going through terrible hardships this year. Not us.
Three years ago the month before this blog started we had a helluva start to fall - Blue had surgery because his thumb got smashed and we hadn't legally adopted him yet so we had a CPS investigation right before his adoption trial. Woo-hoo! That was also the month Kevin, with Blue in the car, got hit by a drunk driver. On a Friday MORNING! Car was totalled so thank goodness for friends who loaned him a car for a whole month while insurance junk got figured out and we knew how much money we had to put down on a new car. That was a high drama time.
The drama these days is the 3rd grade homework load.
We ended up buying Kevin a NEW car (usually we're used car folks) and NEXT month we make our FINAL payment. That's something to celebrate.
I recognize that. I also recognize that 3rd grade homework being our current highest drama is pretty awesome too.
I wrote more things to be thankful for in a bible time journal this morning *our neighbor's cut their grass! *I think we're at three days in a row without rain! *last night's jog *a bag full of coins my Dad handed off to me, that once I rolled 'em and deposited 'em, is enough to pay for an upcoming date night AND a new outfit!
I feel like moment by moment I'm celebrating the little things but then at the end of the day I just feel blah. Blah doesn't translate into wanting to blog.
Ok, there are a few over-arching things that have lent to the "blah" (in addition to the nightly homework battle):
I can't lose weight. Sept 6th Kevin and I started a cleanse. A strict, strict, designed for serious weight loss cleanse. Fiber drinks and protein shakes... The first week I lost four pounds. Yay! Weeks 2 and 3? Um, it would appear I've already hit a plateau. Excuse me? Kinda depressing. The summer was so hit or miss for exercises. In July I logged a whopping 7.92 miles jogged over 4 jogs. In August 0 miles. 0 jogs. But here in September now that structure has resumed and weight loss is a goal, 15.81 miles over 8 runs - I know that averages out to some short, short runs, but like tonight, I didn't hit the pavement till 7:30pm and I was already pretty much out of daylight when I started so I just ran a hard 1.5 and came on back. This also doesn't factor in our daytime walks. Bottom line. Exercise! Healthiness! But all I can think is... four measly pounds.
And it does get me down how hard schoolwork comes to Kaden. Not one "A" on his progress report. :-(
Also, I've started taking Kaden on jogs. The first time I was proud of him, but overall I'm discouraged by how whiny he is about it. He acts like I'm killing him! But then mid-jog he'll casually hop up and swat a basketball net he's passing, or, at the end, when he should be spent and I say let's race to our stopping point, he's suddenly got all this energy and leaves me in the dust right away. I don't get it.
And even though Toby has been doing fantastic. I mean really great, using sentences, being so, so funny, snuggling, very little hitting and scratching which were such big issues just a month ago... We're in the process of transitioning him AGAIN to the special needs preschool (instead of just ST and OT appointments) and I know it's a good thing, but then part of me is like really, MORE change for him?
And a few other things regarding friendships that I don't really want to bring up on a public blog. ;-)
And this whole election time. That's depressing too. I happen to like the first family and I hate it when people say ugly, untrue things about them online. Especially when the tone is anger and the source is a "Christian." Also drives me nuts when people assume I feel a certain way because I am a Christian and will think I will agree with them that the president has been the worst for Christianity because of things like his stance on gay marriage. I believe in CIVIL RIGHTS for ALL people and my faith leads me to that compassionate conclusion. Clear?
Whew. Where did that soapbox come from?
I am pleased with how the Gators are playing. And I've got a party in the works for the FL/GA game that I'm quite excited about. That's good.
I've read some fantastic novels recently. I've been cooking (some stuff just for the boys and then I go eat my salad with vinegar dressing - sigh) a lot and considered a few food themed posts. Toby and I stay busy and I've considering talking about some of our at-home learning fun. Like today I gave him some money to put in his piggy bank to work on fine motor. He played me so well. Kept asking for "more pennies" and I gave him at least a buck more than I was planning to. (Once it goes in, it can't be taken out - that's just wrong!) We've also had a lot of fun with home-made tub paints and going swimming at a friend's house. Less fun, but still productive has been our letter work and writing practice times.
I've thought about posting about how Blue's doing with kindergarten (exceeding expectations in that we only average about one bad report per week).
I considered a post about packing healthy school lunches and maintaining variety. Eh. Don't feel like it.
Kevin started some earth boxes.Yay! Fresh herbs. Potential for fresh veggies! Nope... don't really feel like blogging about that either.
That's it. That's what's going on. Glad you're up to speed? Want pictures of the kids? Um, I haven't taken many since Labor Day weekend...
Blue "swinging." (At least once a week we go to the playground before school in the gap between Kaden's drop off and his.)
See you back here... eventually.